Rest, relax, and be in a letgo.

“Rest, relax, and be in a letgo. Letgo is the secret of life. Letgo is the secret of religion. Letgo is the greatest secret. When you are in a letgo many things, millions of things, start happening. They were already happening but you were never aware.” – Osho

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Lately I have been really trying even harder to stay present in the moment and to surround myself with the most positive of energies that I can. I have a lot going on with my health right now and I could easily choose to just give in to the stress and the frustration of it all, but instead I am trying to focus on the things I am not lacking in: i.e.- love, support, inspiration, faith, hope.

It can be very easy from an outsiders view to look in on someones life (especially nowadays with blogs, facebook, twitter, etc) and to judge someone’s life based on a mere glimpse of what that person chooses to share with the world. I try to share the things that are hopeful and happy in my life. I will not ever pretend that everything in my life is perfect because there is no such thing as perfection. I also will never be actively negative on my blog or any other source of an outlet for myself and others.

I believe in being honest and real but there is nothing good that can come from focusing solely on the painful and sad things in your life. It’s normal and okay to share those things with people you love and trust but always bear in mind that negative energy can easily be contagious and projected and is not usually ever useful for neither yourself or anyone else.

My goal in my life is to find ways to cope with the hardships I have been given for whatever reason they may be. I plan to take whatever possible good I can from every painful thing I experience, both physical, emotional and mental. From pain comes knowledge and strength. I choose to keep pushing on through the setbacks so that I can find the light at the end of the tunnel. No matter how bad things get there is always something to be thankful for.

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Kripalu Center for Yoga & Health

I am lucky enough to live very close by to Kripalu which is one of the most calming, beautiful and meditative spots around. I love to go here and take photos, explore the grounds, visit the cafe and shop and just sit and look out at the magnificent view.

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St. Francis of Assisi

Many of the stories that surround the life of St. Francis deal with his love for animals. Perhaps the most famous incident that illustrates the Saint’s humility towards nature is recounted in the “Fioretti” (“Little Flowers”), a collection of legends and folklore that sprang up after the Saint’s death. It is said that, one day, while Francis was traveling with some companions, they happened upon a place in the road where birds filled the trees on either side. Francis told his companions to “wait for me while I go to preach to my sisters the birds.”The birds surrounded him, intrigued by the power of his voice, and not one of them flew away. He is often portrayed with a bird, typically in his hand.

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Organic Wild Rosehip Seed Oil  & 100% Pure Unrefined Shea Butter

I have been wanting to try pure Rosehip seed oil for awhile now and when I found this one for just $15.95 I had to get it. It’s an added bonus that it’s Organic. I also picked up some more Shea Butter because I go through it so quickly and this one in particular is so soft, it’s almost whipped! It goes on like a dream. Both of these are super hydrating (and affordable!).

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I went to the ER yesterday afternoon after having severe spasms in my stomach for the past few days. It got worse yesterday and I decided it probably best to go get it checked out. I deal with chronic digestive issues on a daily basis but these spasms were consistent and different than usual. I spent four hours in the ER, had x-ray’s and blood work and thankfully they didn’t find anything serious. I am scheduled for exploratory surgery on Friday to rule out any possibility of an Ulcer, Diverticulitis, etc. If everything comes back normal than it’s most likely my Spastic Colon that’s causing the pain. I will feel better once I have everything ruled out though.

I will go back to what I said earlier in this post and that is that I am focusing on the good that came from this situation. I ended up meeting someone at the hospital who recommended a specific medication for my chronic nausea and so far it’s been life changing.

There is a reason for everything we experience (good or bad). It may not always be our destiny in this lifetime to know the reason why, but it is up to us to decide what to do with the information we are given and whether or not we wish to turn it into something positive.

xoxo,

Britanie

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accept and progress | 2013 resolutions

“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make art – write or draw or build or sing or live only as you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.”Neil Gaiman

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Many people don’t like the idea of resolutions but I happen to welcome them with open arms. I like to have start dates. It helps to motivate me to really think about the things that I want to better in my life for the upcoming year and beyond that. I have always found writing down my resolutions every year to be extremely beneficial.

I have a few goals for the next year and beyond.

Food for thought:

I don’t like to say that I want to “lose weight” as I think basing anything around weight is never healthy. Four years ago is when I finally started to be more comfortable with my body. I  found confidence within myself regardless of the number on the scale or the size of my jeans. I have been down the road of extreme weight loss and gain so many times and could never quite seem get it right. I have always had a hard time with my metabolism due to many chronic health issues that make it hard for me to exercise as much as I would like and that make it hard for my body to detox and digest foods properly which in turn mess with my insulin and so on and so fourth. I also have ongoing thyroid issues which doesn’t help anything. My biggest issue is that I make too many excuses for things when it comes to eating and exercising because part of me doesn’t want to go back down the road of worrying about my weight or caring about what size I am, but deep down I know that I am so far beyond that mindset. I know that I can change myself for the better because I have finally accepted myself and my body as it is now. I firmly believe that when you truly accept and love yourself for who you are now, -that- is when change can become possible and more successful in the long run.

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I already eat a very healthy, balanced diet but there are a few things that could definitely use some tweaking. I used to never eat after a certain time of night, preferably 6 or 7 pm and the reasoning behind that is that for me my digestion tends to get worse the later it is and also your metabolism is at it’s slowest at night. I always found that eating more throughout the day and lighter in the evening was very helpful for me. I also notice that although I have been gluten and dairy free for almost ten years now that I have introduced too many prefabricated foods into my diet (gluten free bagels, pretzels, etc). Another thing I used to do quite frequently was keep track of what I was eating. I always kept a food diary with me to jot down things that I eat. Sometimes you don’t even realize how many calories you are taking in until you actually take the time out to sit down and write every food down and it’s then that you start to recognize any possible bad habits. Writing down what I eat is also going to be beneficial for my digestion as certain foods really aggravate my Gastroparesis and Gerd symptoms more than others and it can often be hard to tell what the triggers are. I think keeping track of the food I eat will help immensely. I will make sure to keep a small journal with me and write down everything I eat and drink every night.

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I always start off a new year with a new journal.

Movement:

As far as exercise is concerned I know that although I cannot exercise as much or as hard as I would like to that I can still move my body. I know I should do it more but the truth is that I fight with chronic fatigue, nausea and dizziness (among other things) on a daily basis which make exercise the last thing on my mind. I used to do Pilates 3 times a week and walk for at least 20 minutes every day. I plan to get back to doing my Pilates and Yoga DVD’s along with walking daily. Exercise is not only important for physical purposes but for mental and emotional benefits as well. According to many studies, 30 minutes of walking a day can be as helpful as taking an anti-depressant. Yoga is also wonderful for stress reduction, improvement of digestion and over-all well being. I took a Yoga class with Bryan Kest a few years back and it was three hours long. For a few days after that I could barely move because of how much I strained my muscles. Although that kind of exercise is good for some, it is far too intense for my body. I think that over all the right amount and kind of exercise will help to benefit me more than not.

Meditation & Positivity:

I am naturally a very anxious person and when you combine that with chronic pain it can make for a horrible amount of anxiety and stress. Many people in my life do not even now that I deal with anxiety on a daily basis. I have learned how to be good at hiding my anxiety but I have the tendency to rely on certain medications to help me through the anxiety, panic attacks and chronic bouts of nausea. This year I am going to make a significant effort to use more relaxation skills like – Meditation, Detox Baths, Specific herbs and teas, Breathing techniques, etc.

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Through positive reinforcement and thinking, I have learned to accept myself as I am .right.now.  and that kind of out look has really brought along an incredible amount of clarity and peace. I hope to continue to carry that peace with me and to have it help me to work on the things that I would like to change in my life. I have an immense desire to better myself as much as I can. It’s amazing what can happen when you truly do everything in your power to change your lifestyle and to help yourself in every way possible. I have been through so much in my life and all of the pain has taught me lessons that I know will continue to serve me in the next year and years after that.

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I can only accept and progress.
the more I realize this, the stronger I will continue to become.

I see amazing things coming in the next year. My heart, my body and my mind are ready for it.

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Bring it on 2013 ♥

xoxo,

Britanie

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life update | if we surrendered to earth’s intelligence we could rise up rooted, like trees.

If we surrendered to earth’s intelligence we could rise up rooted, like trees.

This is what the things can teach us:

To Fall, patiently to trust our heaviness

Even a bird has to do that before he can fly.”

Rainer Maria Rilke

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Two Blue Jays Sittin in a Tree

I caught these two love birds this morning. Whenever I see Blue Jays, I feel very blessed as they represent truth and good luck. I think they are so beautiful.

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The Blue jay’s animal symbolism resonates truth, faithfulness, and solidarity because they are vigilant in their tasks. They also keep the same mate for life, which is symbolic of endurance, patience and loyalty. The jay is an excellent symbol for those wishing to honor their long-lasting bond between friends, family and lovers.

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christmas decorations are finally going up!

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vintage earrings from my mom

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Tayo playing in the snow

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Homemade Coffee Body Scrub with Shea butter, Cocoa Butter and Bergamot, Lemon and Rosemary Essential Oils.

I have been making body scrubs like a mad woman lately. I just love them so much. They are perfect to give as gifts, especially with the Holiday’s around the corner! I received such a great response on my DIY Organic Lavender and Vanilla Sugar Scrub that it has inspired me to start making even more batches of scrubs! I have a ton of recipes in mind. Expect more body scrub recipes soon! I also came up with a great facial scrub that I will probably share as well! I love to spend time in the kitchen concocting recipes from clean ingredients that I can find in my own kitchen!

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Zum Rub and other goodies from Indigo Wild.

Thanks to Kimberly Loc’s review of the Frankincense & Myrrh Zum Rub Natural Moisturizer by Indigo Wild, I absolutely had to have it. They sent me a mini version of the Zum Rub which is so adorable and perfect to carry around in my purse! They also included a few soap samples and an all-natural aromatherapy laundry detergent. I was so impressed with their company that I ended up buying two more of their products. The Zum Lemongrass Face Scrub and the Frankincense & Myrrh Bath Salts. This month I went through some particularly stressful events which caused my hormones to go all wacky and made my skin act up. For the first time in twenty seven years I had acne that I could not seem to get rid of. I have been using this cream every night in conjunction with my Osmia Organics Cleanser and Spot Treatment and slowly my skin is starting to clear up. I have also been doing some DIY recipes for the acne spots which I am planning on sharing here on my blog soon! After dealing with such bad breakouts, I will never, ever take clear skin for granted again! The good news is that there are so many things you can do to clear up your skin! Sometimes you just have to become a bit creative and think outside of the box.

My morning skincare routine was featured on No More Dirty looks the other day which is really exciting. I love to able to share my favorite products and tips and tricks. I still use everything mentioned but I tend to change up my skincare routines quite frequently as I try out many products to review here on my site!

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I have started to meditate more and to be more present. It is so easy to get caught up in the things that cause us stress on a daily basis. It can feel overwhelming and overpowering but you have to remind yourself that you can get through anything. One of my favorite quotes to recite to myself when I am feeling down: “Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle.”. Remember this at all times and never let the sadness get the best of you. There is always hope, as long as you are open to it.

Be at peace. Not in pieces.

Have you ever had an experience in your life where you felt you couldn’t overcome it and you did something therapeutic for yourself that gave you some relief? I’d love to hear your thoughts, experiences and any tips that you have to offer! Email me or comment on this post.

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xoxo,

Britanie

life update | shine bright like a diamond.

Positive thinking evokes:

More energy

More initiative

More happiness.

It is so important to stay positive despite setbacks in life. If there is one drastic thing that has changed about me in the past four years, it is my outlook on everything regarding my health issues and my struggles. I refuse to let myself get down for very long. Many people think that positive thoughts are something that people are just gifted with. That is not the case. It takes practice and patience. Positivity is something that you have to work at and after awhile it will come naturally to you.

I hope everyone who celebrates Thanksgiving had a wonderful Holiday! Mine was really lovely. I celebrated it with Matthew and some of my family members. I ate way too much but it was worth it! Speaking of family – My nephew had his baptism this past weekend. I was honored to be the one to hold him while he was being baptized and to be his Godmother! Although I was raised Catholic, I do not consider myself a religious person. I do not abide by nor believe in a lot of what religion entails, however I do consider myself to be extremely spiritual. I believe in a higher power, whether or not it is the same God that the Catholic religion believes in is entirely irrelevant to me. I believe in love, honesty, integrity and kindness and that should be all that matters in the end anyway.

Carter is getting so big already!!! He is truly a little angel. I love him so very much.

my dad, mom, brother, nephew, sister in law and me :)

Gluten-Free and Vegan Crepes and a Vanilla-Nut Latte with Almond Milk.

I swear this Vegan Vanilla-Nut Latte is the best thing that ever happened to my life lately. I’m obsessed.

I have been making batches of body scrubs lately. I am thinking of packaging them and giving some to loved ones for Christmas!

I might even do a giveaway of them if anyone would be interested :)

I was really ill with a 24 hour stomach virus the other day which seemed to make my Fibro act up again and also really irritated my stomach. I have been taking spoonfuls of Unsulphured Blackstrap Molasses because it really helps with my stomach irritation. I have noticed a significant change in my energy levels since doing the round of Iron Transfusions. I am finally able to wake up early and stay awake during the day and to be able to be productive! It feels amazing. Matthew started his new dream  job today!! I am so excited that everything is finally coming together!

If you missed one of my latest posts about my DIY Apple Cider Vinegar Hair Rinse, you should definitely check it out! It has made such a huge difference in my hair and everyone that has tried it so far is LOVING it. I will be having many more DIY posts in the future. I love to share homemade beauty treats with everyone! Natural beauty doesn’t have to be difficult or expensive!!! It makes my day when someone tells me that my blog has inspired them to change up their products to more natural ones.

The most important thing is to be aware of what we are putting in and on our bodies. There is no need to be obsessive or paranoid about it. Just focus on being a little bit more clean one day at a time :)

xoxo,

Britanie

simple pleasures, falling feathers.

“Let me live, love and say it well in good sentences.” – Sylvia Plath

Afternoon tea.Fennel and Honey with a Cinnamon stick for added flavor(perfect for stirring honey, too!). Yummy in my tummy.

I had my fourth and final (for hopefully a long time) Iron Transfusion yesterday. The nurse had an extremely difficult time finding a decent vein on me and ended up leaving my hand and side of arm completely bruised. It was not fun. I am just happy to have these done with as it’s been an incredibly long and hard month. I am so thankful for everyone who has been so supportive throughout it all and sending me so much love and healing energy. It means the world to me.

Matthew and Tayo giving me puppy dog eyes.

Mini Weleda haul. There was a sale going on at my local co-op market and I had to pick up these items that I had been meaning to to for a very long time. Lavender Relaxing Body Oil, Birch Body Scrub, Skinfood Cream. So far I am loving everything and have been using the Lavender oil every night after my shower. So lovely.

I’ve been listening to this song a lot lately. So beautiful.

I hope you all are having a lovely weekend!

xoxo,
Britanie

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life update | I’m so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.

October is my favorite month in the world. I love the yellow and rich red leaves on the ground. The cool, crisp air. Layering clothes and wearing boots everyday. It’s been absolutely freezing out the past few days and I feel Winter nearing sooner than I would like it to. If only Fall could last forever. I still want to go apple picking, paint some pumpkins and take some beautiful fall photos. Matthew is coming here tomorrow (finally) he has been away in Europe for almost two weeks. It’s been really hard not seeing each other for so long and especially during my transfusions. I had my second iron transfusion on Wednesday and it was pretty rough. I had a dizzy spell from all the medications they gave me and I ended up staying in the hospital longer than expected. You know that you are on too many medications when they serve you hospital food and you think it’s the best thing you’ve ever eaten!

Today is the first day I actually feel like I have a little bit of energy. I think this is the first time I have worn makeup in a few weeks or have had any ounce of energy to put myself together nicely. I hope this is a sign of more good days to come. I’m staying positive as always!

“Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think
“I’m not going to make it” but you laugh inside
— remembering all the times you’ve felt that way.”

I was featured on one of my favorite blogs The Clean Beauty Blog where I talked in-depth about my current skincare routine. It’s been so fun to collaborate with other blogs and I have a few more things coming up soon that I will be working on that I am really excited about.

[outfit: melika boots from justfab.com, sweater from american eagle, blazer from the gap, hat from h&m, dress is thrifted, calla lily earrings from jewelmint.com]

[face: Jane Iredale Glow Time BB Cream (this is seriously the best foundation I have used in ages!!!!), Vapour Organic Beauty Illusionist Concealer, Pure + simple Blush, TheBalm Shady Lady Palette No. 2, lipstick in the color "Galaxy" by ZuZu Luxe and Ardell Demi Lashes.]

Presents from the lovely May Lindstrom. I will be doing a very in-depth review of every product from her line coming soon! So far I am absolutely madly in love with everything she sent me. Her packaging and products are so luxurious and she is one of the sweetest people in the world. Such an inspiration.

I knew they were secretly in love. I don’t think they meant to get caught but they did. cutest thing ever.

I put together this huge tin of organic loose lavender and chamomile tea and I’ve been drinking it every night before bed. It really helps to relax me. I love these two herbs on their own but I find that they work amazingly well in conjunction. I like to add a little bit of honey too, it’s a nice night time treat for the senses.

I looked after my 10 week old lovely nephew yesterday and it was the highlight of my week. his smile kills me!

and then to add to my happiness my sister in law sent me this photo of carter!! I said YES of course!!!

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xoxo,

Britanie

life update | If I can only recount the story of my life right out of my body, flames will grow.

“These pains that you feel are messengers. Listen to them. Turn them to sweetness.”―Rumi

What a tough week. I was admitted into the ER on Sunday night after having an extremely hard time breathing and losing feeling in my arms and legs. They did an EKG and a bunch of other tests and told me I was receiving lack of oxygen to my brain and blood due to complications from severe Anemia which in turn was causing my body to go into a state of hyperventilation and causing the numbness and drop of blood pressure, etc. I got in on Wednesday for my first Iron Transfusion which lasted a few hours. They also gave me a steroid and an anti-nausea medication in the IV. I have had a lot of swelling afterwards which I am assuming is from the steroid and my bones are aching from the Iron trying to get situated in my body. I feel more tired than usual and extremely dizzy. My hematologist told me that the first month of Transfusions will be really tough on my body and I will feel worse but that after the month is up and my bone marrow starts to recognize the Iron that I should start to have more energy and feel better. I cannot even begin to express how much I am looking forward to just feeling a little bit better. Not even great. Just better. (although great would be amazing).

The added stress of the transfusions has made my Fibro pain increasingly worse. It has been so much better up until now.  I started getting in for Acupuncture again which I missed dearly but wasn’t even able to make it to because of how sick I have been but it is helping the pain. I am also forcing myself to stay up as much as I can during the day to move and regain some strength but it has been extremely difficult. I won’t give up though! I am too determined to get better!

I have some fun new blog post ideas coming up soon. I will be doing another giveaway very soon as well as posting more recipes and at home facial concoctions!

One transfusion down, three to go!

I like to add a little Joy Juice from Lotus Wei to my morning tea! Who couldn’t use a little more joy in their days right?!

Benny has been sleeping with me and keeping me company through this rough patch. My lovely little chi-chi.

Spinach Omelet, Baby Romaine and Cherry Tomatoes. I have really been enjoying cooking more and coming up with fun and easy to make recipes!

Indian Healing Clay and Raw Manuka Honey. I like to make a face mask using these two products! I will do a blog post on this soon.

Currently Reading:

I am really enjoying this book so far and it’s been a great read while I am recuperating!

xoxo,

Britanie

I’m moving out of orbit, turning in somersaults, I dive into those eyes, jellyfish swim by.

“Every day I discover more and more beautiful things. It’s enough to drive one mad. I have such a desire to do everything, my head is bursting with it.” Claude Monet

Breakfast lately: Two Eggs, Organic Turkey Sausage, Spinach and Tomato Scramble.

My healthy dessert option lately when I am craving something sweet.

The best thing I have ever discovered for my skin. Truly.

September Goodebox!!! My favorite item in the box is definitely the Grapefruit Goddess Lip Balm from Ladybug Jane! It’s so delicious. I can’t help but lick it off of my lips. I really want to try the Vanilla Cupcake one!

Speaking of lips, I have been loving deep burgundy lips for Fall!

[ makeup: honeybee gardens pressed mineral powder foundation in "supernatural", christopher drummond duo phase concealer in "light", zuzu luxe blush in "nymph", physicians formula shimmer strips cream gel liner, mac lipstick in "dark side". ]

I ordered a bunch of new healthy cookbooks and Paleo related diet books. I am excited to start reading them. I’ve been really changing my foods around lately and cutting out as much processed foods as possible and focusing on mainly fresh foods and lean proteins. The less sugar in my diet the better. It’s been really hard but I am really sticking to it because I just want to feel better and fix my digestion and feel leaner!! I will be posting recipes and pictures of my meals soon!

xoxo,

Britanie

Staying positive despite setbacks.

“I am
a series of
small victories
and large defeats
and I am as
amazed
as any other
that
I have gotten
from there to
here”

Charles Bukowski

I had 13 vials of blood taken this week. I am still very anemic but the reason for all of the blood work was to check up on my hormones to make a decision on whether or not I should start on natural Progesterone cream to help keep the Endometriosis at bay.

I have been in a lot of pain and have been vomiting a lot lately because my food just won’t digest. It’s been extremely frustrating and uncomfortable to eat and feel miserable immediately afterwards. I recently started seeing a new Acupuncturist. I have seen her twice already and really, really like her. She has given me some Chinese Herbs to take and she has worked with both Endometriosis and Gastoparesis so I feel very hopeful about it. I am not expecting to see instant results as I know sometimes Acupuncture and Herbs can take up to six months to really feel the full effect but I am hopeful that I will be able to see some results fairly soon.

I am still hoping that at some point I will be able to get my Esthetics license as I would really love to do that professionally. I have been considering it for years now but unfortunately my health has made it impossible to really commit to anything full time right now. I am praying every day that within the next year of doing acupuncture on a regular basis and eating a Paleo diet (no grains or sugar) and incorporating Qi-Gong, Yoga and Walking into my daily life that I will feel better enough to be able to work on my career as an esthetician.

I don’t expect I will ever be completely healed of all of my health issues but I do expect to be able to function more normally and to not be suffering on a daily basis. I am staying positive and although I allow myself times to cry and be frustrated and discouraged, I always force myself to focus on the amazing things in my life and the little things that make me happy and it helps me get through the day.

I encourage anyone who also suffers from chronic pain whether it be physical, mental or emotional to try your best to put any energy you can muster up into thinking about the things you are thankful for and the things that make you smile. It can be anything. Just focus on it and remind yourself of the good things in your life instead of dwelling on the bad.

and of course always remember that this too shall pass.

Sometimes I feel like my Camera is my therapist. Whenever I walk around with it in my hand and see things to photograph it feels so cathartic.

xoxo,

Britanie

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Keep Going (Dealing with Chronic Health Issues)

“Let everything happen to you,
Beauty and terror.
Just keep going,
No feeling is final.”

Rainer Maria Rilke

I’ve been in a lot of pain this week and sometimes it gets hard to get out of bed, let alone put my makeup on and make a blog post with a smile on my face. If there is anything I have learned about living with chronic physical pain it is that every thing you do, every thing you say that is positive will help you so much in the long run.

Sometimes I am over eager to do more than my body is capable of doing and I don’t listen to my body and I push too much and I pay for it after. Sometimes it is worth it and other times it’s a big set back. I am learning to accept when my body can not do something and to not feel guilt about it.

I think a lot of people who deal with chronic health issues live with a severe amount of guilt. I know I do. Guilt that we aren’t doing as much as we should be. Guilt that we are disappointing friends and loved ones by having to cancel plans on short notice or just simply knowing that you cannot go somewhere with them because of how you are feeling physically. It can be really stressful and being stressed out only makes matters worse.

I am learning every day to not put pressure on myself and to not feel guilty if I cannot push myself as far as I or someone wishes that I could. I can only do the best that I can do for myself. My advice to anyone out there who suffers from chronic pain, physical or mental, don’t beat yourself up about it. Push yourself just enough to where you are comfortable. Don’t surround yourself with people who are not understanding of your situation.

If someone really loves you for you and wants to be around you they will see you for so much more than just your health issues and they won’t make you feel guilty about not being able to go places all of the time or for canceling plans. If anything they will be proud of you for even wanting to do so much regardless of how bad you are feeling. Just having the drive to do more is enough. If you feel that people in your life are not understanding of that then you need to re-evaluate who is in your core group of friends. A real friend would never make you feel bad for feeling sick.

Just because we live with chronic health issues does not mean that we are our health issues. We are so much more than that.

Keep on keeping on.

“Suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but – I hope – into a better shape.”

xo,

Britanie

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