“That is all I want in life: for this pain to seem purposeful.”
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I had surgery last Monday in Boston at Mass General Hospital. It was quite the traumatic ordeal. I had an adverse reaction to the medication and ended up being awake throughout the entire procedure. I remember every single detail. I remember the tubes being put down my throat, the biopsies being taken, it was awful. I’ve been in a lot of pain since then and have really just been focusing on recuperating so that I can go to Long Island on Wed. I haven’t been there in over a month. I miss everyone so, so much it’s unbelievable.I’ve been reading a lot and motivating myself. I am so in love with The Beauty Detox Solution by Kimberly Snyder. It has rekindled my belief in eating properly combined foods and eating a high raw diet. I have decided to go back to eating a high raw food diet with strict food combining. I felt the best when I ate that way and followed simple rules. My health has just been so out of my control lately and I cannot stand the feeling of not being able to do the things that I want to do because of my health. I want to do everything in my power to help myself and I know that by food combining, eating more raw fruits and veggies and adding in green smoothies and juices that I will start to feel better. It’s not easy to stick to but once I get past the first few weeks of detox I will feel amazing. I feel better just making small changes within a few days.

It’s amazing what happens when you truly do everything in your power to change your lifestyle and to help yourself. I’ve just been through so much. Too much. and I just want to live my life. I am doing literally everything that I can to help alleviate any of my symptoms. It’s been a rough few months. There was at least a few weeks where my stomach was so bad that I literally couldn’t keep any food down. It’s been a little bit better lately since I’ve made changes to my diet and added in some supplements and digestive enzymes. I hope that I will continue to feel better. I won’t know the results from my surgery until the 19th. I am keeping my fingers crossed that everything will be okay and that if it isn’t that there is a solution.