It seems that I am always in a state of wishing and rarely in a state of contentment.
I keep going back and fourth between what I want to do for a career. I get my mind set on something and then I start thinking of something else. It drives me nuts. I didn’t sign up for the Institute of Integrative Nutrition yet. It’s a $5,000 investment and I would have to take out a loan. It’s a big thing to take on. The other issue is that I don’t know how quickly I would find work after finishing. That’s where the Esthetics comes back in to my mind and makes me think I would not only make more money but would have many more options for work after graduating. There are a few positives and negatives for each. The Esthetics school that I already visited and really, really was impressed by is in NYC and so I would have to commute once I am living on Long Island. Which isn’t a HUGE deal considering it would be only on the weekends and would probably be a good thing for me, honestly and the school takes financial aid so I would not have to take out any loans. On the other hand Institute for Integrative Nutrition is online and so I could do it from wherever but would have to take out a loan and not be sure of getting a good job afterwards. This is why I am so confused. I talked to Matthew about it yesterday and we both agreed the best thing would be for us to find an apartment and get settled in so that I can know where I am living at before I make any decisions of where I am going to go to school and work, etc. I think that’s the best idea. Once I am in a stable living situation I think things will become a a lot clearer to me. In the mean time I am going to keep researching the differences between both schools and figuring out my possibilities.
I am going back to Long Island this weekend and am excited to look at apartments and spend time with Matthew and see Melissa whom I haven’t seen in a few months and miss terribly. I am also going to spend more quality time with Natasha and hopefully have some hangout time with miss Ali as well. I love my friends so much.
Despite the stress I am actually quite happy right now. It feels good to have so many possibilities.